Joy and Grief

It has been a busy week. There has not been much knitting. There has been a bit, mostly brightly colored foot covers for little toes, and this is good. 

I have also had the chance to hang out with some friends that I have not seen in awhile. Some from the church I used to attend, a knitter who knows my heart, some new friends and an evening with my daughter (who has become a great friend!). There has been much joy in these relationships, and lots of opportunity to talk about what God is doing in my life...which is bringing back the joy.

One friend said to me, at dinner on Thursday, "Won't you be glad when 2017 is over?" You see, she knows my deepest woes, and I know some of hers. We have freely shared our struggles and joys, and we have openly spoken from the depths of our hearts. It is so good to have friends like this, with whom you can talk through the events of everyday life and also the big, hairy things - good or bad - that are happening in your world. These friends have mastered the art of laughing when you laugh, and mourning when you mourn, and sometimes just being still together. This is so good. 

I answered her question quickly, "No...I thought I would be glad when 2016 was over, and I thought I would be glad when 2015 was over, but at this point, I am just accepting that this life will be full of trouble." As I recall the evening, I realize that it probably goes back even a little further than that, and several of the big, hairy things have really knocked me down through these past few years. 

The thing is, as I struggled to just keep going through the hard stuff, I often beat myself up for not having pure joy when difficulties presented themselves. (James 1:2) I chastised myself, I have been chastising myself for experiencing grief. The losses of friendships, jobs, important people and family members have all occurred in the last couple years, along with some things so deep and personal that I will not blog them. There has been so much loss, and I have denied myself the grieving process, thinking that I should just get over it all and be joyful already. 

Last Saturday, with my knitting friend (and some new friends I met for the first time that day), I finally gave myself permission to keep the grief. The speaker at the ladies retreat we attended was enlisted to speak about Unlocking the Power of Friendship, and she was very good. Even though the theme was friendship, she gave a good insight on grief, and the fact that we all walk around with some grief every day. She gave us permission, and I felt like she specifically gave ME permission to accept that grief as a part of me. Not to dwell on the grief, but to accept that it may never go away, and to acknowledge that others will also come from a place of some grief in their lives. That grief will color our joy, but it will not prevent us from receiving great and pure joy, praise God!

The father of lies (John 8:44) has been telling me that I am not good enough. If I were, I would be getting rid of the grief, and I would have nothing but joy in my troubles. But then I look at Job, who lamented loud and long. He never did "curse God and die," as his wife suggested (Job 2:9), but he did cry out. And although he was again blessed with sons and daughters and livestock and wealth, his life was forever changed by the grief. I am sure that he did not just forget all that he had lost, but he let himself mourn, and then he allowed joy to grow while his grief diminished. 

Psalm 30:5 reminds us that "...weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning." I think weeping can last a lot longer than through the night, and day, and weeks, and months...but if we are looking for it, joy will come in the morning. It may take counseling, medication and fierce determination, but joy comes to those who seek it through their relationship with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Weeping may come back from time to time, and grief will always be a part of who you are moving forward, but joy brings life...not just life at its bare minimum, but the full and abundant life that Jesus came and died to give us! (John 10:10)

On Friday night, Dollface and I went to see Waitress in downtown Cleveland, and it was a joy-filled evening! Dinner and a show was just the ticket to embracing joy yesterday, and I look forward to many more joy-filled moments and days, even though I still have grief in my life. 

I wish you great joy in your life, and I hope that you have some dear ones in your life to help you find that joy, even through your grief. 

Thanks for stopping by, and Knit in Good Heatlh!

I Do Not Have a Problem

Somewhere along the knitting line, I got sucked into the stripey madness of Knit Picks Felici yarns. So, when I realized that there would be quite a bit of travel knitting time on our recent trip to see the kids, I hurried up and got myself some of the Punch Bug colorway to knit socks for the girls:

Mind you, I did not need new yarn. But this stuff is so soft, it is like the fur of the softest, stripey-est kittens when it is knit up, and the socks are tough and hold up very well to washing and wearing. Perfect for items that might end up in the dryer, or on little people... I started with this pair of socks for Peanut...

...and finished up with these little, shorty socks for a girl who sometimes fights mommy when it is time to put on socks and shoes!

Little socks are so much fun! Of course, big socks are fun too...and so are hats and scarves and sweaters and toys and...hmmm. My name is Pretty, and I knit. I knit quite a bit. In fact, every time I sit I knit! I was starting to wonder if if I have a problem, but I asked my knittahs, and they assured me that my knitting habit is completely fine. Whew! (Sweetie, on the other hand, thinks I have too much yarn... =^/)

If you also have a knitting habit, I would be happy to reassure you that you have everything under control...unless you truly do have a problem. If I should find that your yarn habit has become excessive, I will gladly take some of that stash off your hands...you know, just to help you. No, seriously, I want to help you...

Give Me Your Yarn! lol!

Thanks for stopping by, and for your support of my knitting habit. Knit in Good Health, and please drop off some pretty yarn at my house!

Altitude

It has been a busy week for the Pretties! Sweetie has continued to heal, and even though we had a couple of "speed bumps" during his recovery (post-surgery infection related), overall we are calling the last week a big win! You see, while the cats were blogging last Saturday, we were here:

Well, we may not have been right there at that moment, but my dear Mork has moved his family (or, rather, the US Army has moved his family) to the eastern side of the Rocky Mountains. At first blush, this made me sad, as the visits now involve airline travel and more miles than ever before. I believe this is as far as these cuties have ever lived from us...boo!

On the other hand, our visits will be longer, and there is so much to see while we are there! I mean, there is a MOUNTAIN in their back yard!

Actually, this whole place is just awe-inspiring! There are mountains everywhere you look, you cannot go outside without being struck nearly dumb at the majesty of creation...even coming out of the grocery store, or walking in Manitou Springs!

And then, one day you go and actually visit one (or more) of the mountains in person...our first mountain visit was to Garden of the Gods.

Not only is there a great view from the visitor center, but you can get up close and personal with the rocks here! Although Sweet Pea slept, and Mommy ended up staying in the car with her for much of our visit there, eventually we were all able to walk right up to (and climb on) some of those red rocks, it was amazing!

Then, as if the 6000 ft they live at were not impressive enough, we ended up driving up Pike's Peak another day. Stopping along the way to admire the view,

climb some more rocks,

and sometimes just catch our breath from those hairpin turns! 

The peak of this beauty is over 14,000 ft, which makes for some thin air, and a little bit of dizzy for the Ohioans...

But wow! What a view! God is sure good, and there is such perspective on his creation here. 

I will never read the old testament references to mountains in the same way after this trip! The whole earth, including the mountains, was covered with a flood. Moses went up the mountain to retrieve God's commandments...twice! I went up the mountain only once, by car, and I cannot imagine the journey on foot! Side note: when you reach 14,115 ft, sometimes the snacks you have packed for the ride just open themselves! lol!

All in all, we had a lovely trip! I got to wear my matching "Ninnie pants" with the girls, 

and there was knitting (Mindy, Peanut and I even talked the boys into stopping at a local yarn store for some souvenir yarns!!!).

Although they are no longer a simple car ride visit away, I am glad that my boy and his family have been called to this place for the next few years. I cannot wait to see more of the adventures they embark upon, and Sweetie and I are super excited for our next trip.

God is good, and there is no doubt in my mind about that, especially after seeing his creation up close and personal in the mountains! How has God been good to you this week?

As always, thanks for stopping by friends, and Knit in Good Health!

People and Cats

Sooo, it's been awhile, and the cats have been begging me to let them blog again. I never really know how this is going to go, hence this disclaimer...

The following are not necessarily the opinions of the blogger, but those of her feline companions. If you disagree, please do not leave rude comments. Rather, remember that these are cats, and cats are...well, cats! In any case, if you have opposable thumbs, please thank your lucky stars and be kind. Thank you.

Black Cat: Are you insinuating that we are rude?

White Cat: Insinuating? C'mon...she just pretty much said it outright...

Black Cat: We are not that bad...

White Cat: No, we are not. People are stupid.

Black Cat: No! No! People pet us! They are good!

White Cat: Stupid, stupid, stupid! Haven't you seen the news? Stupid stupid-heads!

Black Cat: Ummmm, I do not really watch news? I mean, that stupid-box is always saying something, but it's not like that's "news," right?!?

White Cat (smacks forehead with front paw): Mroowwww! You, my feline friend, are a meow-ron. You might as well be a people!

Black Cat: Thanks. Why are they so stupid?

White Cat: Nobody knows, but they are. They are only good for filling the food bowl and scooping our poop. Hahahahaha!!! They clean up our poop! Stupids!

Black Cat: They are good for petting us, too. Remember what the pretty one did yesterday? She petted my head so gentle...it made me purrrrrrrrr!

White Cat: Well, they are good for that...

Black Cat: They are. And the yarns! I loves the yarns!

White Cat: The yarns are not ours. She yells when we play with the yarns.

Black Cat: Yes, but they are still fun! We would not have fun yarns without the Pretty!

White Cat: Word.

Black Cat: Are they still stupid?

White Cat: Yes. But if they have yarn, I guess we can keep them.

Black Cat (sighs contentedly): I am glad we can keep our peoples.

White Cat: Yes, but when these peoples are "gone," we will not get another people...deal?

Black Cat: Word.

Well, that was...ummmm...interesting. I guess they have a point. Looking around, people do some stupid and senseless things. From this day forward, will you join with me in doing our best to make this world a kinder, gentler place?  It is true that one person cannot change the whole world, but if you can make the world better for one person today, you will have accomplished a great thing. Please be kind and love one another.

Thanks for stopping by, and Knit in Good Health!